Oh boy. So after last night’s worry over those stupid EPT’s, I did NOT get a good night’s sleep. I woke up at about 3:30am, and due to excitement and nerves, couldn’t fall back asleep until about 5:30. In that time I peed on another EPT, and played about 7 rounds of Scramble with friends. I swear I see that game when I close my eyes. It’s burned into my brain.
The EPT was clearly positive this time. I still hate the blue dye tests now compared to FRER’s pink, but seeing the + sign on that one was very reassuring.
So there’s always gotta be something stressing me out, and my current worry is my spotting. I tried to explain it to my best friend via text earlier and it scared the shit out of her, and then her reaction scared me almost into tears. I definitely explained it badly to her. I told her I was having a lot of spotting every time I wipe. Really, it looks like a lot because of the Endometrin goop. It’s a light pinkish brown beige color for the most part. But when the meds are making their slow, nasty exit, it looks like A LOT, albeit probably not a lot of actual blood. It’s not bright red blood or anything. Sometimes it’s a watery bright pink, but it’s very watered down.
It’s not even constant. It seems to be the worst during the Endometrin purge. It just scared me because this is new in the last couple days. Before this my Endometrin mess was just white.
I tried to call the doc a little bit ago just for some reassurance, but their answering service was down. I can never call during work hours because my iPhone is a piece of shit and the mic rarely works, so they call me back, can’t hear me, and hang up. (The 5 cannot come out soon enough!) I think I’ll ask to see a nurse or doc when I’m there for my blood work tomorrow to ask about it.
I need to RELAX. I am going to try to stay positive tonight. Worrying bad, calm good.
Here’s my new collection of pee sticks: